wanted_to

i wanted to want to, i wanted to want you i wanted to want you and forever you i wanted to want you i wanted to want everything that you do because i love what you do. but i don’t want you i don't want this forever so you need to go find someone else to give it to you you gotta find someone to give it to you because i cant pretend to anymore i cant pretend to anymore i gotta think about me too i cant pretend to be a person for you like i always wanted to for everyone i dont even know what i wanna do or who i am and neither do you how could you know who i am? but i know you and that’s not fair to you that i get to see you and you don't get to see me too im trying to show you me too this is me too a fucking mess this is me, the person you never met i need to like fix him and not hide and hide behind you i cant hide behind you and i don’t want to